My mind At its worst

Folks it has been a hectic week, and as the blog name states I am having the usual problems figuring out who the hell I am. I am a slightly Conservative well mannered and liked individual who on the surface appears to be calm, rational, and in control. There is however a slight problem with this. I am actually quite the opposite. You see I have been fighting myself since the war, and it gets really hard sometimes(Especially times of stress) to control my rage. I have a number of things that will flash through my mind daily that I barely control. One moment it is grief, the next hate, I really cannot stand it. As I stated in my last post, I have acted out on my feelings. My in ability to control that basic instinct tells me that I am loosing progress that I felt I made. This poses a problem as well as snuffy now stays awake for days on in now. I hate not being able to sleep as it also ads to the stress, which in turn deprives sleep. My only therapy lately seems to be the hooch, but I do NOT want to wind up she stinks ass homeless drunk you see on the street corners.
The left tards in this country do not help. They provide me with endless speak of baby killer and self victimization that in this country is impossible to find.
But until I figure out how to over come my hatred of shrinks(quacks) I will have to adapt and suffer. Ah the price of freedom.

WOW!!!

Folks, it has been some time since your humble host has posted. Since last time I updated this poorly written lame attempt at a blog, I was slaving away at underpaying bullshit job. NO MORE!!!! I could no longer stand the whole work over night, while my friends go drinking, and pick up new girlfriends whilst I slave away, getting threatened by hobos, and disgruntled ex employees of billionaire bastard that I guarded.
You should have seen my bosses face. I told him to eat shit and die twice! I am super happy as this new job works a lot more, but does it on unimportant weekdays, and never on weekends!!!! Cheap bars, drunk girls, and disgruntled taxi drivers here I come!!!
I cannot wait! This new job pays handsomely, and It gives PAID holidays!!! My boss is super fucking cool, and snuffy is ready to rock that freshly obtained divorce! I have not had a chance to because of Hebrew slave job.
Gotta cut this a bit short, as I am about to go Bat shit crazy with joy of new found freedom and money!!!!!!!